Tuesday, January 27, 2009

-sorrrryyyyyy.

okay so i havent really been keeping up like i promised i would BUT  im REEEEEEAAALLY gonna try.  lately, ive  just been working & back at the dance studio getting things in order for the recital and all the things that come with that plus the boyfriend and stuff. but life is still as amazing as it has been for a while now. im truly blessed and i cant stress that enough. everyday, i try to give thanks as much as possible for the things that may seem little but are HUGE. my family is all alive and well. i have the best friends a girl can ask for. and for being only 24, theres nothing more that i can ask for really. i would just be greedy. but with that being said, i saw this randomly as i scrolled through my buddylist as someone's away. which me & this person arent & never really were friends. we share a common denominator which to me NOW, is nothing really but not so great memories but... eh. fuck it. anyways, this was it. "the weak can never forgive. forgiveness is the attribute of the strong".-mahatma ghandi. as soon as i saw that, i was like damn, thats sooooo true. just like everyone else, ive done my share of shit that looking back, i shouldnt have or maybe i couldve handled the situations differently, but all i can do now, is forgive myself for not making the best decisions and use those times as stepping stones and lessons learned. not only am i applying this to myself but im gonna be putting this to use with the people that for one reason or another have hurt me or just proved to be untrue. whether it be from friendships, to relationships even family.  i have forgiven a few people for past things and to be completely honest, things have been nothing but uphill since then. i dont carry all these hard feelings or grudges. it feels good. and its one of those things where you really start to like realize, this would not have been me however long ago. i've come a really long way from the person i was even a few  months ago and i couldnt be any prouder. so to those who i might have hurt with words or actions, im sorry. truly. the choice to forgive me now belongs to you. and this entry ends here.

6 comments:

Jervis said...

its good to know that you've progressed. forgiving others is a hard request, but you;ve mastered it. Life will now be easier,seeing that u learned that lesson.

Naty Michele said...

proud of you for letting go of all the bullshit, because each day you realize what truly matters, & all that negativity doesnt. love you.

griddy said...

some personality cleansing never hurts loll.

nah but thats cool tho. theres always room for more maturity.
=]

Unknown said...

stole your stolen quote, lmao thanks. you're sucha cutie jaeeee.

Anonymous said...

So glad I came across your blog...it's like a life in pictures, which i absolutely love! I hope you update more often, especially if you're a basketball fan like me...ATL HAWKS all the way!! BUT, i still got mad love for the Knicks since I was born in NY. Looking forward to more posts!

Kiwi™ said...

Congrats on your pregnancy!!!!