yours truly.

merry christmas!

2009-12-24T12:15:00.005-05:00

i know ive been very neglectful of my blog *BUT* in the new year, im gonna try to blog more often. its christmas eve & this year feels like it FLEW by. but im more than grateful for what i have- my daughter, my relationship, my family & my friends. so i'll leave this here & wish every single one of you a very merry christmas & happy holidays to you & your loved ones. with love, alex, baby london & i :]

happy valentines day. ♥

2009-02-14T12:24:00.011-05:00

so i've been mia once again. lol sorryyyyyy. but this is gonna be a pretty big post. 1st, happy valentine's day to everyone & the special ones in their lives. last week i picked out my vday present and got this puppy & a wallet to go with it. im like totally in love with it so THANKS DADDY! you're the greatest. i cant stress enough how much im blessed and every day i make sure i thank god for each and every one of those blessings. the past few weeks ive been a lil sick on & off. and we've just been like ohhh maybe i havent been bundling up enough in this crazy ass weather. but saturday after the gucci store, we went came home & made plans to go out for a few drinks im in the bathroom fixing my hair and im like ugh blah im not really feeling all that great so i go underneath the sink where i had a box of preggers tests i bought with nini the other day when we went to target and got pretty trashed at fridays since we were downing mai tai's & electric lemonades. lmfaoo. i cant. *insider. but none the less, there are the results. positive. BOTH of them. i was like OMG! i was

in this big ass house by myself. my first reaction was to cry. idk why. my emotions were all running through me at once. i called my parents. they were SUPER excited. i bbm'd alex & was like you need to come home RIGHT NOW. lol. and he did. hes like dont cry, its a baby. OUR baby. which is true but at the same time doesnt change how unnerving it is to find out that you're pregnant especially when you're not expecting it. but all of friends & families are super supportive and we know that we're gonna love this baby and be the best parents that we can be for it. tuesday was a pretty eventful day. we went to the doctors. found out we were six weeks into the pregnancy and in 2 more weeks, we'd be able to hear our little shrimp's heartbeat. craaazy! it was also the night of the spurs vs nets game that i got tickets to for daddy's valentine's day present well one of them. lol. we sat 2nd row behind the spurs and unfortunately, i wasnt feeling all too great up until about halftime. but i made it thru with my saltines and my ginger ale. lmfao. butttt... here's a few pics that i was able to get. we didnt take any together due mostly to the fact that i felt like CRAP! buttt.. enjoy!

superbowl mvp santonio holmes was there signed footballs & threw

em into the crowd.

timmmyyyyyy!

*for griddy.

pg vs pg

tonyy!

final score.

so yesterday when i got off work, me & my brother dee money went to the hilton to fix up the room for my bitch tati. it was sooooooo hard to keep it a secret from her. i wanted to tell her everyday since like 3 weeks ago when he hit me up with the idea and i agreed to help. so here's the pics from what we did for her. ♥ ilu biotch. im glad u loved it.

-sorrrryyyyyy.

2009-01-27T21:03:00.004-05:00

okay so i havent really been keeping up like i promised i would BUT im REEEEEEAAALLY gonna try. lately, ive just been working & back at the dance studio getting things in order for the recital and all the things that come with that plus the boyfriend and stuff. but life is still as amazing as it has been for a while now. im truly blessed and i cant stress that enough. everyday, i try to give thanks as much as possible for the things that may seem little but are HUGE. my family is all alive and well. i have the best friends a girl can ask for. and for being only 24, theres nothing more that i can ask for really. i would just be greedy. but with that being said, i saw this randomly as i scrolled through my buddylist as someone's away. which me & this person arent & never really were friends. we share a common denominator which to me NOW, is nothing really but not so great memories but... eh. fuck it. anyways, this was it. "the weak can never forgive. forgiveness is the attribute of the strong".-mahatma ghandi. as soon as i saw that, i was like damn, thats sooooo true. just like everyone else, ive done my share of shit that looking back, i shouldnt have or maybe i couldve handled the situations differently, but all i can do now, is forgive myself for not making the best decisions and use those times as stepping stones and lessons learned. not only am i applying this to myself but im gonna be putting this to use with the people that for one reason or another have hurt me or just proved to be untrue. whether it be from friendships, to relationships even family. i have forgiven a few people for past things and to be completely honest, things have been nothing but uphill since then. i dont carry all these hard feelings or grudges. it feels good. and its one of those things where you really start to like realize, this would not have been me however long ago. i've come a really long way from the person i was even a few months ago and i couldnt be any prouder. so to those who i might have hurt with words or actions, im sorry. truly. the choice to forgive me now belongs to you. and this entry ends here. ♥

KOBE; 24.

2009-01-15T20:33:00.022-05:00

okay, okay, okay, i know ive been gone since the 31st but ive been caught up and im just enjoying 09 which has started with blessing after blessing. so before i keep going, first HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone. i hope everyone's was as good as mine. secondly, thanks to all the new followers ill start to update more often. i PINKY. but as far everything else goes, i love my life. my job is great. i love my bf. my friends. everything. im blessed. daddy got me my bold as my birthday/congrats on the new job present. for those of you who know me, know im a BBM head. so send me ur pins if you're reading. ;].as most of you know, my party was this past weekend and it was looking pretty grim for a lil bit BUT things got better and we partied our asses off. ill try to put the pics in the best order possible but alot of that night is a blur. lmaooo. 4 bottles of moet & hella mixed drinks... put me smoooooooooooooooooooooth out all of sunday. lmao. this birthday was absoloutely my best one EVER. thanks to everyone who came out, i love you. felt good to have everyone u care about come thru n show love and for the one's who the snow fucked it up for yous; ilu too! =] thats all i got for right now because these creeps got me dying in this group chat. LMFAO.

*nini has pics on her page & tati on the gg$ page.

*struggling much? lmfao.

*that pic was later on at night but my fave pic of that night.

blooooooooomies 5th floor.

*my fav asian ;]

*sisters.

sak-passe nigga?! the haitians!

luvlynes.

*around the way girl dj radio rose. -you're the best yo. ilu!

thanks for coming thru and showing as much love as u did.

-take one.

STOP LOOKING LIKE A CREEP! lol

iiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaann & victorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. CLIFTON! lol

my s.i.l. ♥

JENNIFERS!

what the efff jontantan.

my two whiteguys.

brother sister love.

sneaker pimps 2006.

<333333 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_JOEN2tsow1s/SW__oLb4ZtI/AAAAAAAAAPM/Lbxo2Pk_yh0/s1600-h/DSC02531.jpg">

brother & s.i.ls

j x j x j ;]

nae x jae

nae x jae x kelz

fuck em all.

muahz.

choooos. *i know, i fagged it with the string & so did nini. lol

some of my fave boys.

me & daddy all night.

that was my glass. lol

gimme gimme gimme

ummmm wtf? lol

osama bin bookie! lol

my heart.

*candid.

"come on dariusssssssss i want one too" lol

bitch.

09.22.07

nasty ;]

aye aye aye!

2 steppin.

cheeeeeeeeeese.

*end of the night. TRAAAAAAAAAAASHED.

last post of o8.

2008-12-31T10:28:00.008-05:00

before anything, thanks to everyone for the comments and the love. i really appreciate it. i'll get around to thanking you all individually but for right now, to EVERYONE... THANK YOU.<3. 2008 has been for me like im sure for everyone else, a rollercoaster. ive reached my highest of highs *in every sense of the word* LMAO. and hit those lows too. but im thankful to be blessed to not only have amazing friends. whether new, old, new-old ones who we got reconnected be a part of my life. they may not realize it but every single one of them plays such an integral part of my day to day its not even funny. so thanks you guys all of you. if you're in my circle you know who u are. ;] ily. and my hubby, im so blessed to have him. ily daddy. you're the best. thank you. but im anxious to say goodbye to 08 and step into 09. its already looking bright for me. got a new job i start on monday *chicka chicka yeeeaaahh* i'll be at statefarm in jersey city sooo $$$$$ here i come. 8). well thats it for now. do it big tonight!

-i wish all you guys a happy & blessed new year. 09 is mine baby! *im going from jordan (23) to kobe (24) in like 12 hrs.. damn. im an old head.

heres some eye candy from christmas eve.

-okay so i was a lil tispy by this pic. lmao.

someone was feeling themselves.= X

092207.

*our daughter with her mommy & daddy. ;]

besties.*

my youngins. gotta start em early. ♥ these lil bitches.

♥ my minis.

trey songz in the face ass nigga. lmao. cousin ricky

-yummmmm

its not a party at the sosa's til the haitians

come thru. lol. the marvs!

christmas day:

two men who have my ♥

being a good aunt & uncle

lakers vs celtics game. lets get it LA.

my bad santa ;]

p.s. KAY, my twin, YOU'RE awesome. <3

-catching up.

2008-12-23T22:47:00.003-05:00

well, ive been gone for a minute. things havent really been all peachy keen. but im alive, still very blessed, thursday on the way back from picking alex up from work, got into a 4 car pile up on 280 right before we got on the parkway. ugh. basically we were sandwiched and everybody else's cars had like a busted tail light and my baby looks like this. smfh. but again i thank god and my lucky stars no one got injured and that we were able to get ourselves home. at which point im on my way home talking to my mom trying to calm down when i get word that a friend of mine whos mom worked with my mom just got diagnosed with leukemia. my heart sank n i could not even begin to hold back my tears.she's only 21! she went thru her first chemo treatment and is responding well and shes staying positive so thats keeping ME positive. THENN, to add more insult to injury i get home finally only to find out my boy was shot & killed in newark. i had so many diff and random emotions running thru me that ive kinda just shut down but im blessed to have a great boyfriend who is more than that. he's my bestfriend and he's held me down and kept me focused and with my spirits and not only that, i have some of the most amazing friends. thanks to my girls for being there. thru everything. i love you guys. (*tati, carm, & stef you guys especially for understanding and being yourselves.) i appreciate you more than you know. thanks, again.

but on a lighter, happier note, ive started to feel better about EVERYTHING. people out there have it much worse than me. i pray for lissette's recovery & for j-jay's family. as cliche as it sounds, everything DOES happen for a reason and i continue to be grateful and recognize my blessings on a day to day basis. but, i FINALLY found a spot for my birthday party and set a date and everything. so for those of you who want to come out to celebrate my 24th birthday with me (yes, im an old head =[ lmaoo) you're more than welcome to on saturday january 10th at 10pm at fr.og 71 spring st @ crosby. come by, say hey, party with me & my closest ones & make some new friends. girls are all free before midnight. guys free before 11. i'll post all of the other specifics later closer to the date. but any questions, leave a comment.

-no need to be greedy; i got madd friends thats pretty.<3

2008-12-14T23:03:00.009-05:00

friday night me & my bitches went out for some yummy coconut mojitos. yummm. we left cubanu* to go to allzone* wow, NEVER AGAIN. like really. im not joking. OD spanish music, a bunch of fat, grown ass men singing *feliz navidad* i wanted to die. it was hot. muggy & smelled like an NFL locker room. blech. but needless to say i love my girls and we had fun. im still waiting on nini* & stefcue*

eye candy:

spoiled lil bitch.

2008-12-11T00:31:00.009-05:00

okay so alex comes home on tuesday and is like "i have a surprise for you" me, being the fat girl that i am, im like "can i eat it?" lmaoooo he shows me tickets to the nets vs knicks game lastnight. it was a smashin surprise cuz last year, we literally like lived at the izod center. we went to games all the time so i was like a little kid in a candy store. and for those of you who know me, know that when it comes to sports, im a boy. i love sportscenter, pardon the interruption, the blitz, nba fastbreak, baseball tonight, all of that. so here are some pics. some of them are kinda shitty and i hate it but, fuck it good times. :D

:D

-izod center.
-shooot around practice. i sound like a bozo. i was sooooo rocking tho.
shouts to my nigga griddy! broooooooooooklyn .lmaoo

nets starting line up.

twinsies. ugh. lmaooo.

why do i always look like a bitch?

muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch better. lol

reading. dique.

-vince carter free throws.

-quentin richardson<3 & devin harris.

-vince carter.

-devin harris BEASTIN.

-quickie*

2008-12-09T21:52:00.003-05:00

this is just a simple, quick entry since i keep getting bitched at for not blogging as much as i should. but whatevs. my thanksgiving was great. just family. of course blew it down with friends but for the most part, it was ALL family and i loved it. i didnt flick it up much idk why. =[ but i do have a couple of me & the mister & our godbaby cam ♥ he's soooooooo cute. its weird because he was a preemie and so tiny when he was born and to see him now its like wth?! lol im in loooooooooooooooooooove. <3

my two men. looooves it.

our godson baby cam.

est. 0922.

♥

- thats it for now. i hope you bitches are satisfied. lmaoo. *ahem. stefcue. neeners. tots & teenz.

im gonna.

2008-12-04T11:46:00.002-05:00

blog more. i swear. -updating slowly but surely.

in your face stefcue, nini, teenz, & tati. lmaooo. <3

giving thanks.

2008-11-26T11:35:00.001-05:00

with tomorrow being one of the best holidays of the year from more than just a fat girl point of view, i decided to take some time out to really reflect and just be thankful for the things & people in my life who mean more to me than anything else. this year has been a hell of a rollercoaster, ups & downs, twists & turns that i have never even anticipated. as usual, im thankful for my family, their health & their well-being. im thankful for my friends who no matter what have supported me in my quest for any & everything no matter how big or small.

missbehavin. [;

2008-11-21T20:17:00.003-05:00

okay so lastnight. me & my bitches hit up:
a

and the result is this: a fucking messss. lmaoo. we got trashed off the free drinks. got free hellz
bellz tees & i got a chance to hook up with some of my fave people, see some of my ny heads, &
meet some dope as people in the process. *theres an INSANE amount of pics so bare with me.

sarah morrisson of missbehave

emilia of missbehave

free shirts. chicka owww.

ana.

green drinks. yummmmm.

dj radio rose.

tattoo twinsies

bubblegumponys. i ♥ this chick. obey twinsies. [;

bloomies bitches. ♥

the rest.

who the fuck wears a onesie?! lmaoooo

i guess this is where i took over ninis away. lmaoooo

i aint shit.

but she aint shit either. *gooooooooooooooooooooooooooood times.

singing girls just wanna have fuuuuuunnnnnn.

2008-11-10T02:35:00.004-05:00

this weekend we went to prime for my homegirl naty's bday.
needless to say, we had a fucking blassssssst. here's some
pics & vids.

she sweaaaaaaarsssss*

*we look like we're at an assembly for all the 11th graders. lmaoo.

we took some special pic for our bitch teenz. couldnt be there but we
drank and shit for you. [;

we looked like a sorority. lmaooo.

Original Video - More videos at TinyPic
*after prime. on our way to talay. already drunk as hell. lmaooo.

we left prime & went to talay to meet up with jon & niki.

*traaaaaaaaaassssssshed, i mustve thought i was at yoga. the fuckkkkkk?!

its been a minutes since we been together on some bug out shit and it being ana's first time, its like it used to be madd long ago. im glad we have grown up over the years when shit was shaky, spoke like women, held no grudges, put it in the past, and were able to pick up like nothing happened, smoke a L, get drunk, have fun & ride for eachother. okay so not when me & ana left talay, tati IMs ana & is like "nini is about to fight". we were like 3 or 4 blocks away so we turn around to try to find our way back, then the next IM "oh shit nini is fighting." i start driving alleratically & shit, park by a bunch of garbage & end pretty much running back to the spot. we found out it was the chick that me & ana HAD JUST FINISHED talking to as we were leaving. she was dunnnnzoooo. i knew her from hs & knew ana from working at vs. but we just kept saying wtf? we just talked to her. she was downstairs when we walked out. but whatevs, we race upstairs n the girl was already taken out the party. nini's response. "awwww. i feel so loved bro." lmaoooo. CLASSIC.

ana on our way home.